Me talking about all my nutso obsessions

     Okay, now that I've learned that i can make little lists on here, here is my list of all the things that i am currently obsessed with:

• DreamWorks animation studios 
• Old art, specifically the Italian renaissance
• Ancient Mesoamerican civilizations, specifically the Maya
• Boys. 
• The immense loss of knowledge through the years (like the burning of the library of Alexandria)

    Lets start with the Mayan civilization.  For one, it crushes my soul to know that only 3 of their codices still exist today across like 3 different countries because ALL THE FUCKING OTHER ONES WERE BURNT BY CONQUISTADORS.  If I could go back in time to do anything I would save those books dude.  That falls both into the categories of the Mayan civilization and the loss of knowledge.  And for two, they were just really cool.  Okay I completely forgot what I was going to talk about here because I started writing this like a week ago and I'm only just now coming back to it.

  

  Okay, next topic, the Italian renaissance.  I like the renaissance because I feel like it is a true show of what humans were made to do.  We were made to create art, like literally that is one of the only things that makes us human other than walking on two legs and being hairless.  idk i think that Sandro Botticelli is super cool and i love the birth of Venus.

    The only reason I like DreamWorks is because i don't like Disney lol.  DreamWorks was started by 3 guys in the 90s who all quit Disney because they hated it, and Disney is a mega corporation that is almost 100 years old.  Also I love 2d DreamWorks animation because it shows a time in the world when Disney had a true competitor.  Also because they made Ramses II in "the prince of Egypt" super fine. 

    I love boys because look at them.  Most of them are like puppies, cute and a little stupid.  I know that's wrong of me to say but i cant help it.  I also like boys because they have nice arms.  And the good ones are nice to talk to.  I think that scientists should study me due to how boy obsessed I am.

    The burning of the library of Alexandria breaks my heart because just think about it.  all those scrolls, gone forever.  And the deletion of flash player also breaks my heart because we lost a whole fuck ton of old games, old websites, etc.  I put "etc" because I ran out of examples but you know what I mean.  

    Fun fact about this post: I originally started writing it in like the summer of 2024 but i forgot about it and I'm

just now coming back to it.  lol

Going crazy again

 This is about a boy

    I love talking to myself on this blog. IDK where to even share it lol.  

    That's beside the point of this blog post though, I've been thinking about my most recent boyfriend.  My second boyfriend ever.  Basically my dream guy.  And even though we've been broken up for like 5 months and we only dated for two weeks, I'm still having trouble forgetting about him.  I think its because I had a massive crush on him before we dated.

    And also I'm like 99% sure he doesn't even care about me even though the version of him that appeared in my dream said he did.  And like i also tried to get a rebound guy and it literally didn't work?  And i cant even attempt to get back with him because 

    1. he has strict parents that don't let him date

    2. he's kind of stupid (even though i love him)

    

    I also cant forget him because his friends post pictures of him all the time and I cant help but look at them because he's so cute and stupid.  Seeing his friends post about him all the time started all of this; i saw his friends TikTok about him with melancholic ass music in the back and it immediately brought me back to yearning for a guy that does not care about me. like what😍